I’m not surprised, I’m heartbroken.
I’m not surprised anymore.
I’m not surprised by the number of lives COVID has taken.
I’m not surprised by the deteriorating mental health.
I’m not surprised by Blue lives matter taking place while Black lives matter is still oppressed.
I’m not surprised by the amount of Karen’s their are.
I’m not surprised by the amount of rape legislation’s that are sky rocketing since his election started.
I’m not surprised that he’s president.
I’m not surprised that he is a rapist.
I’m not surprised by Trump, Weinstein, Kobe, Biden.
I’m not surprised by 2020.
I’m not surprised at the fact that when I say no, you think that means yes.
I’m not surprised by “I can’t breathe”
I’m not surprised by the amount of hard-work the poor have to succumb to order to survive.
“Where is my pride?”
Oh, YOUR pride Karen?
They write us off like checks
They demand manicures, haircuts, and go to the beach without care.
They shame, guilt trip, and use their privilege as a platform over the rest of us.
I’m not surprised by how many non-binary and trans humans that have been murdered throughout the years.
I’m not surprised by the pain the planet has suffered.
Our poor planet weeps. We spit on mother nature’s feet and laugh in the face of spirituality.
We soiled ourselves in believing we had a second planet to escape too.
What fools. Fools with wide eyes and hopes and dreams.
I’m not surprised that men try to rule the world with their dicks swinging in the air.
I’m not surprised by the oppression
I’m not surprised that our healthcare system is all for profit and we’re better off dead.
I’m not surprised that when we learned to raise our voice, we were quickly shut down.
I’m not surprised by our government ran by white men who are nearing their 70’s.
I’m not surprised by the fact that I can’t walk outside freely without fearing for my life.
I’m not surprised by the lack of education, or the “chosen” school systems for the elite.
You know, the kids that are superior in finance so they get a better education while the others rot in jail cells.
I’m not surprised that people are caged in cells.
I’m not surprised that white privilege exist.
Here’s what I am
I’m fucking heartbroken.
I’m fucking heartbroken that no means yes.
I’m fucking heartbroken that a system like this exist.
I’m fucking heart broken that mental health isn’t taken as seriously as physical health.
Just because you can’t see the bruise, doesn’t mean it’s not there.
I’m fucking heartbroken about everything at this point.
The strength I had to fight has been taken. I feel exhausted by the news.
I feel the weight of the loved ones lost. The weight of campaigns lost.
The weight of the women living with domestic abuse.
The weight of my ancestors telling me in my dreams, they told me so.
The weight that history will always repeat itself. Look at it happening now.
Open your fucking eyes and see the truth.
Crime is still happening amidst this pandemic and we all watch from out phone screens.
We hide from the truth but LOOK, it’s happening. Right in front of us whether we want to swallow it or not.
So, no I’m not surprised.
I’m not surprised.
I’m fucking heartbroken.